I closed last week by saying “I think I’m caught up now.” And right on time it was to then celebrate my 35th birthday this past week. Consider this my celebration on Substack. I prepared some party favors for you. They are little mini-readings. They are a gift from me to you. The nature of a true gift is that it does not come with conditions. I will not tell you how to enjoy your gift. Enjoy it however you like. Or don’t enjoy it at all. Even if it came with instructions (it didn’t), get creative with it. For example, if you choose to indulge, you could enjoy it all at once right now. You could read them with hindsight in the reflection of the week behind you. You could read them with foresight in the anticipation of the week ahead. You could even return each coming day with new sight, reading one at a time on its corresponding day. By the time you potentially do that, maybe I’ll have written seven more for the seven following days after that. I’ve always loved the gifts that keep on giving. It’s the least I can do for you.
You are here. You are at my party. You are in my life. I am here because of you. Thank you for coming to my party. I hope it never ends.
MONDAY
It’s okay if you can’t see the answer you seek right now. There is another answer, and you can see it if you look through your heart. Even if it aches, look through your heart. If your heart is not a place that is open right now, then be next to it closed. It can still tell you something. If it tells you of hurt, listen. If it tells you of love, listen. It may be difficult. It may be easy. Listen to what matters to your heart. It can be unnerving to learn what you actually care about. It can be scary because you might see you care about something which you are not currently giving your time and attention to. It’s okay. It is still an answer. It is a heading. It is an opening. You are always set free when you allow yourself to see. You are always set free when you understand that it’s okay if you can’t see the answer you seek right now.
TUESDAY
Look around at what you have manifested already. Really look around. It’s natural to think about things in life we still want and don’t yet have. An even more essential step is looking at what we already do have. Is there anything you currently have in life which is something you used to hope for in the past? Notice the ways you feel similarly now as you did then, even after getting what you hoped for. It is always a good reminder that the next thing we want is never the final thing to make us happy forever. It is simply the next piece to the puzzle. Can you imagine your life as a puzzle? Look at what you’ve put together already. Imagine the next thing that you want in life as one, small piece next to hundreds (thousands!) of others. Have you picked up a piece from someone else’s puzzle and tried to make it fit your own? Or maybe it is a piece of your puzzle, but it’s not time to place it yet. It’s okay to set it down and keep it in mind as you explore other pieces, which are just as important. Chances are, the place for the piece you set down will be revealed as you continue to work with the others. As you continue to find new connections, remember to pause every once in a while and look around at what you have manifested already.
WEDNESDAY
The layers loosened and fell away when the unraveling happened. The more you acclimate to the new exposure, the more you notice how light you are. There may be a new burst of energy. Ride the lightning. Follow what you feel. You are not weighed down anymore. Breathe in the new air and breathe out whatever you think you don’t know. Breathe in what you do know. Breathe out what you doubt. Breathe in. Breathe out. Ebb. Flow. The ebb is not afraid of when the flow will come. The flow is not afraid of the ebb. They understand the loop together. In the same way, there is no reason to be afraid of things being good. Nor is there a reason to be afraid of things being bad. Without the weight of old things covering you, you are light enough to flow with everything. Oh thank goodness the layers loosened and fell away when the unraveling happened.
THURSDAY
Allow yourself to exist in space. Not just any space. Allow yourself to exist in the new space that has opened up. It is old programming to think that we have to fill space as soon as it appears. We make plans to fill the calendar. We buy material goods to fill our homes. We talk to fill the silence. We do all these things to fill everything up, and then wish for more breathing room. Neither is wrong. It is another ebb and flow. So when the space comes, there is no need to fill it any quicker than it will fill up on its own. Inhale. Fill up with air. Find the pause at the top of the inhale. Enjoy the opening in the pause while it lasts. Exhale. Let all the air empty out. Find the pause at the bottom of the exhale. Enjoy the opening in the pause while it lasts. Continue on like that. Allow yourself to exist in space.
FRIDAY
Temperance allows for a sustainable flow of energy. Overuse or overindulgence with anything leads to suffering. When intense feelings, emotions (energy in motion), or sensations come up, we don’t always know how or where to channel them. Little did we know, we don’t have to know. In the past we coped with them in ways that, over time, started dulling our bodies, minds, and hearts. The dulling started to hurt. The hurt is what eventually prompted us to put on extra layers of protection. And now we find ourselves vulnerable again. Those old layers have loosened, some even fallen off. As you learn to exist in this new space, allow yourself to acknowledge every sensation you feel. Even though some feelings may be new, allow them to move through you like water. By noticing and remaining unattached to any one feeling, you are safe from it taking you over. Accept it for what it is. Accept joy. Allow joy. Imagine joy like water moving through you. Maybe it really is water moving through you- tears. There is no need to build a dam. There is no need to try to make it move any faster or slower. Observe it. Let it flow. Let it come. Let it go. Accept grief. Allow grief. Imagine grief like water moving through you. Maybe it really is water moving through you- tears. There is no need to build a dam. There is no need to try to make it move any faster or slower. Observe it. Let it flow. Let it come. Let it go. Temperance allows for a sustainable flow of energy.
SATURDAY
Let the river flow. There is a cleansing. You allowed the conception of the feeling. The sensation grew. Instead of pushing it away, you allowed it. You nurture what is within and therefore you nurture yourself. The feeling grows as big as an emotion. When the emotion has been nurtured enough, it is time to let it out from inside of you. By releasing it, you are cleansed of it, and it is born into an expression of you. You are constantly being born. We cry when we are born. Allow the cleansing rain. Allow the flow of energy. Allow the droplets of water that come from the rivers of your eyes. Allow for the birth. It is still you. It will always be you. Let the river flow. It finds the soil of the land where you’ll grow.
SUNDAY
This new, exposed soil must be tilled. To till is to aerate. This allows nourishing water and air to permeate it. First, space. Then, roots. Like a newborn baby, be held in this space. You are being taken care of. You were brought to this point for a reason. There is no rush. Let your vision develop. Besides, it’s good to be able to look around and see clearly the people who got you to this point. The ones embracing you now are the ones who kept you alive after the cleansing. Observe them for at least a year or so. Roll around in this space, in the new soil. Roll around until you are covered in it. You become it. You are the one filling the space. You outgrow the confinement. You become your own roots from which to rise. One day, you’ll rise out of the soil into your first sprouts, your first steps. First things first. This new, exposed soil must be tilled.
Read one everyday! Tidbits of contemplation for the soul. It was Divine! Thank you! 💕
I enjoyed this very much. I read Monday to my yoga class this evening. It's lovely. Happy Birthday!